And come onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
These are the only people I would share saliva with.
Besides my mom...
Doesn't that ring a bell?!

T_T

Well....I am not perfect...
After all...this thing we have...the "glow"
Is bigger than we can handle....
Lies....
I can't say I played not part in them...
However....
I wish they had my eyes at times...

One found a new power
One forsook it
One lost the strings to it
One has no heart to confront everything
Me...I let everything fall....

"Versailles....the nobles...."

In a way....every pain is a lesson.
When we catalysts have to hold our breath and pay the price...
But...
When I see my friends fall...
I wonder...
Could they not see me?
Could they not see that I'm still here?
Why do they refuse to grab on?

The lack of trust....
...Fear
The fear to let me see who they really are...
...Pride

In the end...
Was I supposed to force my will?
What kind of friend would I be then?

So I fell in love...
And I waited for the answer....
Waited...
And waited...
I was prepared to wait years...
But then I got it...
But was that answer real?
In any case...I acted upon it...
And broke myself free...
After all...I cannot force love...

So I had a student...
One who was naive and fragile...
Who never saw what I did...
But chaos does wonderous things sometimes...
And now my student sees....
Thing about chaos....
Sometimes...it's too late...

So I had a friend...
Who saw life in darkness....
And I helped him see
That strength could be harnessed
If one only believed...
Perhaps he believed for a while...
But he saw no hope for life
No hope for love...
And hardened once more...

So I have an acquaintance...
Who knows things as I do...
Albeit with a little less patience...
A little less resilience...
But much more heart...
Too kind...to bring forth the vision of the chaos we saw...
But who could blame him...
After all...who would believe us?

Then there's me....
Who loves beyond he should....
The fool....
Who tries to help his loved ones see....
His...Nakama....
That he'd always be there for them...
The fool...
For he saw things...
And never spoke of them...
He saw all their hearts...
He knows many of their secrets...
And could do nothing...
The fool....
The loving fool....

But yet....in all this....there is always...
Another chance...
Always a ray of light...

One will find trust again...
It is never too late for anything...my student...
Love can touch his heart again...
Visions can change...

There's always hope


There's always this
And God will see them through...
I will fly...
I will take them with me...
And if they fall....
I will dive down...and catch them...
And I will soar higher than before...
With them on my shoulders...
ZoeJeanAlwynJeremySher....
I will hold on to them...
Until...they want me to let go...

I have a Nakama....
A Godsend....
Someone...who cares for me....intensively
I'm.....speechless...
I'm....actually....really really...happy.
For once in life...

Hmm....I allowed myself to trust...
Guess it cannot be helped...
I cannot trust anyone anymore...
I think I knew that...
Well...it is not anyone's fault I feel this way...

And definitely not yours,buddy.
BUt I still cannot stand how you seem to disregard me...
And I trust you...
It's not your fault...
But you cannot blame me for starting to think you don't mean it...
How can I believe you?
When you seem to have time for everyone else...
But me?


V...maybe this hurts the most for me...
Among all my friends...
I didn't expect to shield myself from you too...
I cannot hate you...
Or even feel angry...
You're my...buddy...always
I just cannot trust you when you say you'll always be there...
Because...half the time when I dare look...
You're not...
I know it isn't your fault...but...
You don't have to feed me false hope...
But....
It's not your fault...
It really isn't...
I know you tried

Today...nothing much...
Just that tomorrow's a full moon...
And I'm going to post my story on another blog.
Argetlam-moonchild.blogdrive
Go see...when I actually put something there





I loooove the slow motion thing...

Would this be the last set of transformations?
Must I let go?
Must I?


I shall...
I cannot deny it any longer
Though I have feelings for her still....
It is not time...for either of us...
Goodbye....Desire...
You shall no longer have my company...
Ah...what is this?
Freedom? More than that...
Ah...finally...I can see again...
Bitter...and sweet...
What now? That I have removed my wants?
Finally...the Lord has answered...
I knew it wasn't time...
I knew it...
I knew...never to trust human children...
And yet...it was a "child" who taught me this...
I am one too...
And yet...I am not...
Not any more...
Father...I thank you...
So so so much...
She shall finally be free of me...
Perhaps...now...I shall finally...brandish my face...
My hands...
My eyes...
My wings...




No more HOWLING for me...I'm free ^_^