I love writing...
But darn it's troublesome to fill in the details...
I'm burning to get to the interesting parts of Moonchild...
But...oh well....
I'd just come to it slowly.

And I'm so sorry...I know I haven't updated the weblog version since last year.
But!
I assure you...I've been writing...in that orange notebook
And I rearranged the plot a bit
Don't worry...for those who read the online version.
It'll still fit the two "chapters" that I typed.

If anyone's interested in reading,well,do contact me.
I won't put a link up because it's not all that good yet,
But for those who like reading,or just want to read anyway,
Let me know~~~~

Let's just say...it's gonna be more interesting...
I promise you a good read! So do bear with me.

Well,here's the story,and it'll be a testimony in the end,I'm sure of it.

My O results were horrid,so I decided to apply for the "Creative Writing for TV and New Media"(a mouthful,I know! DTVM for short) in SP,through JPSAE. Long story short,went for interview,went well.
However,on posting day,it turned out that I was posted to TP,Interactive Media Technology. Disappointed? Naturally...But I couldn't really do anything,I couldn't appeal,because according to the "rules" of appeal,I only could appeal for a course if my aggregate was the same,or better than the COP.
So I threw that hope into the bin...

Weeks later,on Sunday after church,my mom asked me to go to Subway to get stuff. Surprisingly,someone tapped me on the shoulder,I turned around,curious. Few people do that,to me anyway. Before me,was a somewhat familiar face,though I could not figure why. The woman looked slightly unsure,and asked me if I went for an interview for DTVM in SP...Then something clicked. She was one of the people who was there,appraising me. I had forgotten because I had already abandoned all hope. But then,strangely,she asked me if I had gotten into DTVM. Puzzled,I told her that I hadn't and got a place in TP instead. She was surprised,and asked me to send her an appeal letter through email,and to attach some of my works to it. She bid me good luck and left me there. It was then I thanked God,surely this was a sign? So I did as she told me as soon as I could.
A reply e-mail stated that I would know the outcome by the end of February.
February passed...
And it hit March...Still,no word was heard from SP...So I abandoned hope again. The TP package had come. And I had to enroll by the deadline...
My darling,however,refused to give up hope..."You MUST get into that course",she told me,repeatedly...And I just smiled sadly and shook my head...After all,I had to enroll in a few days...

I enrolled in TP yesterday,a day before the deadline...And I was fully prepared to slug it out and make the best out of the course I was given. And then,mere minutes ago,a call came...It was someone from SP(I forgot her name,so sorry! I think it was also one of the people who interviewed me). She told me that I should receive the package shortly. And that Enrollment is only due later in March. She also said that after the package came,I should be able to un-enroll from TP,should I choose to enroll in SP. I smiled.

Look at that,people. Look at that. Even when it seemed impossible,Jesus saved me at the last possible moment. It's not like I expected this...And,I'm glad to say...Darling was right...Pfft,she has more faith than I. I should call her up later when she finishes school to tell her the news...and to thank her. After all,if it's not my prayers that "convinced" God...It's surely hers.

Jesus fought for me till the very end...and...so did she

Why do I blog? People probably drop by...learning about my life through my words.
And yet...I don't say enough for one to truly know me...
Maybe...let me type as thus,so that people who really care(or who are really nosy),would take the trouble to translate...

多分。..多分時は再び来ました。 彼女は最近目覚めました、そして私。..私は個人的に我々のような人々を見いだすことを望みます。 もう一度。
我々が一緒に強くあり得るように、多くが私の能力を笑います。 私が知っているけれども、力が神によって与えられること。
私はクレジットをとることができません。
それでも、人々が私を横柄で、得意であると呼びます。
多分（彼・それ）らは正しいです。
しかしながら。..
この力は本当です。..そして私はそれを持っている唯一の人ではありません。
１（人・つ）であるために、それぞれが１人の人としてそして４として来なくてはなりません

厳粛なことは別として、私は最終的に結婚しています。 はい、あなたは私の声を聞きました。 結婚しています。
私はけれどもペーパーに署名しませんでした。..
けれども私は大変彼女を愛します、そして私は気にかけるあなたたちのすべてが間に合ってそれを受け入れるであろうことを希望します。

I did cheat death.....
Again...
But I must be careful....
Very careful...

Life has recently been more interesting than before...
The pain is greater than much I have ever experienced...
But it is worth it...
I am not perfect... Neither is anyone else
The past does hurt...
People make mistakes...
As do I...
But,I suppose,my role as a teacher has not ended...
But I do sometimes wish...
That it was all easier...

I mean...I'm not even an adult yet....
And I talk as if I'm some hardened man...
But then again...I did cheat death...

Thank God for that...
Or I'd probably be "dead"...

What a sobering thought....

Long time since I said anything worth thinking about....
Hmmm...I'll think of something....And okay. I know Moonchild hasn't been updated.
But I'm working on it! It's just a lot to type you know!
You can ask for the draft when you see me. I usually carry it around....

Holidays were short. November wasn't considered much of holiday. Neither was December. And January is just so packed.

Some post-O level break....And to think I'm getting my needle tomorrow.....

Anyway...She and I are getting along well. Been through quite a lot already. No regrets whatsoever...Even though it has been rocky sometimes. But we always made it through,thank God...Well,I won't say too much. Quite private you see...and I do not want anyone else to get jealous either. Just for those who care about us both to know that we're doing well!

Went to Magdalene's place like on.....Wednesday. Played Soul Calubur IV....Talked about school life and....caught up and stuff. And played Guitar Hero World Tour....Okay...I honestly suck at that sort of game,but I guess I managed....except for the "pinky" button. Only got used to it in the end.
Oh....and I thought I could sing....But it's really different when it's not on stage with other singers. And really different compared to singing it to the one you love. Singing a secular song like that..
It felt....wrong...
Confidence down...
Effort down....
I was suprised I passed at all....

Anyway....updates aside....
Ever wonder what would happen if you made a mistake....
One that would change your life forever?
Something that felt so right....But can be so wrong at the wrong time?
Ever wondered what the consequences would be?
How should one face it if it comes?
Close one's eyes and walk with calm acceptance?
Or try to find a way to atone...even when it seems impossible?
Or pray that the mistake would turn out for the better?
I am not void of fear...

But I pray I can cheat death again....

When I was studying for "O"s...
I felt more free than I am now...
Some holiday...
No one's fault but my own

Versailles peace treaty

Sometimes we must draw the line....
When lovers argue over you...almost
Something is very wrong....
It is not worth it....
To fight for you....
And for you to take it for granted...

Ignorant to the pain...

Well...I offered you a truce....
You agreed...
So you are my friend...
But I dare not call you anything more...
But at least you are not my enemy....

Remember my words....
"If you want to be my friend"
"BE my friend"

I will honour my portion

I wonder if you would try and provoke me.
Or will you just keep playing these games?
You know the answers to your problem...
Yet you choose not to listen...
Friends who once wanted to help you...
Who once shared their thoughts...
All fell upon deaf ears...
You were too occupied...oh yes...you were.
Why do you keep running?
Reality only gets worse when you don't face it...
How does it feel?
When you can feel all those bows aiming for you...
You....You are their target...
How does it feel?
When you run and take refuge in those you think would shelter you...
No...our shelter was not enough....
Or course it wasn't...
But oh look...aren't those you run too slowly drawing their swords as well?
Face it.
All it takes...is one more step in the wrong direction...
Even they...
Yes...even they will rip your head faster than the others will...
Oh yes....for now...I'll stop the blades...
Quérida halts the arrows...
But your days are numbered...
Tell me...

Is the price too high?
You failed to pay up...and now you must pay more...
Ha ha...oh wait...
Did I not mention that?

Even if you mutter "save me"...you know...
You're calling out to the wrong person...

Take a better look at life...if the above you wish not to worsen...
Aren't you forgetting something?
Get. Your. Priorities. Right.

Or I'd be forced to destroy you myself...

Choices....Wonderful things.
And yet,they make life so difficult.
And so worth living at the same time...
When you have to right choices.
Doesn't one choice turn wrong?
What is right? What isn't?
Something worth pondering.

Anyway. Something to lighten the mood.

この力を....それは皆を救うことができますか？
Or will everything break?
Who will walk with me still?
After the storm passes....
シェリㇼ—ン...永久に僕のところに泊まってください