I did cheat death.....
Again...
But I must be careful....
Very careful...

Life has recently been more interesting than before...
The pain is greater than much I have ever experienced...
But it is worth it...
I am not perfect... Neither is anyone else
The past does hurt...
People make mistakes...
As do I...
But,I suppose,my role as a teacher has not ended...
But I do sometimes wish...
That it was all easier...

I mean...I'm not even an adult yet....
And I talk as if I'm some hardened man...
But then again...I did cheat death...

Thank God for that...
Or I'd probably be "dead"...

What a sobering thought....

Long time since I said anything worth thinking about....
Hmmm...I'll think of something....And okay. I know Moonchild hasn't been updated.
But I'm working on it! It's just a lot to type you know!
You can ask for the draft when you see me. I usually carry it around....

Holidays were short. November wasn't considered much of holiday. Neither was December. And January is just so packed.

Some post-O level break....And to think I'm getting my needle tomorrow.....

Anyway...She and I are getting along well. Been through quite a lot already. No regrets whatsoever...Even though it has been rocky sometimes. But we always made it through,thank God...Well,I won't say too much. Quite private you see...and I do not want anyone else to get jealous either. Just for those who care about us both to know that we're doing well!

Went to Magdalene's place like on.....Wednesday. Played Soul Calubur IV....Talked about school life and....caught up and stuff. And played Guitar Hero World Tour....Okay...I honestly suck at that sort of game,but I guess I managed....except for the "pinky" button. Only got used to it in the end.
Oh....and I thought I could sing....But it's really different when it's not on stage with other singers. And really different compared to singing it to the one you love. Singing a secular song like that..
It felt....wrong...
Confidence down...
Effort down....
I was suprised I passed at all....

Anyway....updates aside....
Ever wonder what would happen if you made a mistake....
One that would change your life forever?
Something that felt so right....But can be so wrong at the wrong time?
Ever wondered what the consequences would be?
How should one face it if it comes?
Close one's eyes and walk with calm acceptance?
Or try to find a way to atone...even when it seems impossible?
Or pray that the mistake would turn out for the better?
I am not void of fear...

But I pray I can cheat death again....

When I was studying for "O"s...
I felt more free than I am now...
Some holiday...
No one's fault but my own

Versailles peace treaty

Sometimes we must draw the line....
When lovers argue over you...almost
Something is very wrong....
It is not worth it....
To fight for you....
And for you to take it for granted...

Ignorant to the pain...

Well...I offered you a truce....
You agreed...
So you are my friend...
But I dare not call you anything more...
But at least you are not my enemy....

Remember my words....
"If you want to be my friend"
"BE my friend"

I will honour my portion

I wonder if you would try and provoke me.
Or will you just keep playing these games?
You know the answers to your problem...
Yet you choose not to listen...
Friends who once wanted to help you...
Who once shared their thoughts...
All fell upon deaf ears...
You were too occupied...oh yes...you were.
Why do you keep running?
Reality only gets worse when you don't face it...
How does it feel?
When you can feel all those bows aiming for you...
You....You are their target...
How does it feel?
When you run and take refuge in those you think would shelter you...
No...our shelter was not enough....
Or course it wasn't...
But oh look...aren't those you run too slowly drawing their swords as well?
Face it.
All it takes...is one more step in the wrong direction...
Even they...
Yes...even they will rip your head faster than the others will...
Oh yes....for now...I'll stop the blades...
Quérida halts the arrows...
But your days are numbered...
Tell me...

Is the price too high?
You failed to pay up...and now you must pay more...
Ha ha...oh wait...
Did I not mention that?

Even if you mutter "save me"...you know...
You're calling out to the wrong person...

Take a better look at life...if the above you wish not to worsen...
Aren't you forgetting something?
Get. Your. Priorities. Right.

Or I'd be forced to destroy you myself...

Choices....Wonderful things.
And yet,they make life so difficult.
And so worth living at the same time...
When you have to right choices.
Doesn't one choice turn wrong?
What is right? What isn't?
Something worth pondering.

Anyway. Something to lighten the mood.

この力を....それは皆を救うことができますか？
Or will everything break?
Who will walk with me still?
After the storm passes....
シェリㇼ—ン...永久に僕のところに泊まってください

I'm sure no one has seen me smile.....
The way I do now

Sometimes...we want things...
And sometimes,life doesn't turn out that way....
But for us children of God...
Most of the time....we get what we want in life...
Though it may be different from what we thought we wanted at first....
It's always.....
Better...

Thank you Jesus...
For the moon
For the rain...
And for lions...
And pigs....
And....Marshmallows...
Ha ha...

Truth and Facade
Both woven into a single part...
And yet,regardless....
Their pain echoes in my heart

Though I should know better...
I cannot help but ask...
To teach them...and hold them...
Wasn't that my task?

Perhaps I have done enough
And they can walk their own walk...
But...why then,can I not believe that?
Is it the way they talk?

But they have grown up...
In large ways and small...
And I'm proud of them...
If they knew at all...

But was I wrong...
In believing what I did?
Ha ha....perhaps I'm like them
Just a growing kid...

Well...I can't stop who I am...
I would rather not live a lie
Though...I know now that I have someone to lean on....
I just...don't want them to cry