When I was studying for "O"s...
I felt more free than I am now...
Some holiday...
No one's fault but my own

Versailles peace treaty

Sometimes we must draw the line....
When lovers argue over you...almost
Something is very wrong....
It is not worth it....
To fight for you....
And for you to take it for granted...

Ignorant to the pain...

Well...I offered you a truce....
You agreed...
So you are my friend...
But I dare not call you anything more...
But at least you are not my enemy....

Remember my words....
"If you want to be my friend"
"BE my friend"

I will honour my portion

I wonder if you would try and provoke me.
Or will you just keep playing these games?
You know the answers to your problem...
Yet you choose not to listen...
Friends who once wanted to help you...
Who once shared their thoughts...
All fell upon deaf ears...
You were too occupied...oh yes...you were.
Why do you keep running?
Reality only gets worse when you don't face it...
How does it feel?
When you can feel all those bows aiming for you...
You....You are their target...
How does it feel?
When you run and take refuge in those you think would shelter you...
No...our shelter was not enough....
Or course it wasn't...
But oh look...aren't those you run too slowly drawing their swords as well?
Face it.
All it takes...is one more step in the wrong direction...
Even they...
Yes...even they will rip your head faster than the others will...
Oh yes....for now...I'll stop the blades...
Quérida halts the arrows...
But your days are numbered...
Tell me...

Is the price too high?
You failed to pay up...and now you must pay more...
Ha ha...oh wait...
Did I not mention that?

Even if you mutter "save me"...you know...
You're calling out to the wrong person...

Take a better look at life...if the above you wish not to worsen...
Aren't you forgetting something?
Get. Your. Priorities. Right.

Or I'd be forced to destroy you myself...

Choices....Wonderful things.
And yet,they make life so difficult.
And so worth living at the same time...
When you have to right choices.
Doesn't one choice turn wrong?
What is right? What isn't?
Something worth pondering.

Anyway. Something to lighten the mood.

この力を....それは皆を救うことができますか？
Or will everything break?
Who will walk with me still?
After the storm passes....
シェリㇼ—ン...永久に僕のところに泊まってください

I'm sure no one has seen me smile.....
The way I do now

Sometimes...we want things...
And sometimes,life doesn't turn out that way....
But for us children of God...
Most of the time....we get what we want in life...
Though it may be different from what we thought we wanted at first....
It's always.....
Better...

Thank you Jesus...
For the moon
For the rain...
And for lions...
And pigs....
And....Marshmallows...
Ha ha...

Truth and Facade
Both woven into a single part...
And yet,regardless....
Their pain echoes in my heart

Though I should know better...
I cannot help but ask...
To teach them...and hold them...
Wasn't that my task?

Perhaps I have done enough
And they can walk their own walk...
But...why then,can I not believe that?
Is it the way they talk?

But they have grown up...
In large ways and small...
And I'm proud of them...
If they knew at all...

But was I wrong...
In believing what I did?
Ha ha....perhaps I'm like them
Just a growing kid...

Well...I can't stop who I am...
I would rather not live a lie
Though...I know now that I have someone to lean on....
I just...don't want them to cry

Pretend....to be strong....
I wonder....
Do I?
....
I cannot decide that...
For it is not for me to decide....
The only thing I can take as a pillar of certainty...
Is that I haven't broken....
Pretend....to be strong....
No...
It is a choice....
To grit teeth and walk through the hot coals....
Sure....it's a choice....
Of course it hurts....
I am human...
But I can walk...
No....I will....

Perhaps it is both the drawback and gift
Of learning how to deal with loneliness...
Yeah.... I can walk...
But can I keep others from breaking?

I can only help to rebuild...
But....sooner or later....
We all must fall down...
I learned my lessons from falling...

I'll just be there to pick them up...
To make sure they don't give up...

Sheesh....
Fine....
So I'm like Allen....
Maybe I deserve people to get mad at me...
Like Lenalee did with him...
But I understand his feelings....
I just eat less...
And my arm can't transform into that ugly thing

Sometimes I just don't know what to do...
But do what I know how...
No...I have strength
God gave me strength...
It's hard at times....
It really is...
But...
Even when they cannot see....
I will do my duty....
But when they want to help...
Should I let them?
And risk burdening them?
I know,because of love....
I would do it for them...
But the question now is....
Would they?
Do they love me?
Do they? Do they?
Ha ha....I feel like a child even in this state...
But maybe...it's easier to trust a friend who loves me...
I don't want to hurt them with my pain...
If it comes again....

....
Ah...I see...
I will let them decide...
I choose to believe....
I choose to believe in them...

この力を...僕は皆を救うでしょう!
Because...I want to